The Darkness Awakened

The Silenced~( Diary Entry 1) {1993 }.

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Dear Diary, the memory of my mother was so vague…I could not quite describe the detached emotions one should feel. After all, how could a little person, like myself comprehend the difference between concrete and tangible things? Nevertheless, here I was alone searching for the truth that I so desperately needed. Where was I going? Why was I being forced to sit next to a stranger? The plane was about to depart and soon my mother would be completely nonexistent.

They say “pictures are worth a thousand words” such pictures were only embedded into my memories, perhaps even in my dreams. My father was my only connection to the world and how it was perceived. As far as I was concerned…there was nothing to fear because my dad would protect me. Well, at least this was the false impression of him; I clanged onto for several years.

The turbulent’s were intense now as I quietly sat in my designated area on the plane. I remember  how content and uncertain I felt, not knowing what awaited me in this strange new place. Tears fell from my face, and I felt a queasy feeling inside the pit of my stomach. My father was nowhere in sight. I waited anxiously for his return, but several hours went by, and still nobody answered my cries.

(Thinking) I feel “nostalgic” (laughs) the early stages of life are so easy you would think… People don’t seem so scary, because they are supposed to be portrayed as the characters in books and movies right? Well, of course at a young age nothing is questionable until you have your innocence stripped out from in front of you. I soon had to discover my own survival mechanisms and my life was just beginning. Let’s just mention that darkness had found me by the time I reached 5 years old.

Awhile later; we had finally landed and the winds were bitterly harsh. I was shivering uncontrollably and quickly escorted into a vehicle. I don’t recall much that had happened that day…all I knew is that everything I once loved was taken. My father was an awkwardly humorous type. He easily adapted to his surroundings unlike me. I suppose he was used to running from the law, as it was an ongoing occurrence. Unfortunately, my life would forever change once I realized my own father had abducted me.

Indeed in my mind, life was grand…nothing could tear me and my father apart. We took strolls together, fished, visited the zoo, and he bribed me with toys in order to keep me happy. I even got to spend a whole summer with my Aunt’s in Disney Land. Again, very faint memories, but they were the few good memories I held onto. I never even thought twice about the reason’s why my father had abducted me…Perhaps another time I would find the answers.

Good night Diary~

 

 

 

 

Kristi has told her testimony to over 2,000 foster youth in 2012. She continues to inspire many with her creative writing style and chilling stories depicted by an innocence and horrid journey.

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14 comments on “The Darkness Awakened
  1. johnnytheblade says:

    Innocently dark, the look of an innocents bout to be island on man made steel high in the heavens(I hate flying too) the toddlers only familar face is a troubled father gives a possible insight on her future. Loved it, thats why you rule!

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  2. johnnytheblade says:

    Innocently dark, the look of an innocents bout to be island on a man made steel bird flying high in the heavens(I hate flying too) the toddlers only familar face is a troubled father gives a possible insight on her future. Loved it, thats why you rule!

    Like

  3. Sreeblogs says:

    Liked it Kristi :)…although it made me a bit sad

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  4. Sweta Ojha says:

    You write amazingly well. I liked the entry. Wish you all the best with the blog. You are going places already! ☺

    Liked by 1 person

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